It’s been fun to do a lot of things I haven’t in a long, long time. It’s very strange to have such a blank slate. Instead of it freaking me out (which of course it does because I LOVE to stay busy), I’m trying to fill it with “what ifs” that have been out there forever.
Turns out no one but me is super freaking excited about new possibilities two weeks before Christmas. LOL. Oh well…. I’m persistent and planning anyway!
Will and possibilities are everywhere. 23 minutes after one resignation, I had a new little adventure and turns out – I can do non-pink things still! Ha. It feels a little like going back to the gym or trying to ride a bike when it’s been a REALLY long time since – I was a little wobbly at first, but now I’m off to the races.
I also am looking forward to giving more of me to things I believe in. It’s funny to have a job you don’t think you’re really good at, and one you’re not sure you really want when there are like 1000 things you think you could do and LOVE and knock out of the park, so only taking on ventures I’m passionate about feels like a real game changer. From work, to learning, to meeting new people, to offering help and hope to someone who needs to believe they deserve more …. There’s SO MUCH TO DO!!
Force of will is a magical thing. I hope enough people learn that. Appreciate it. YOU NEVER HAVE TO BE CONTENT. You never have to sit down and accept where you are. How incredible is that?
Last time I was in NYC, the MoMA (Museum of Modern Art) was opening FIVE DAYS after I left. It’s been closed and in various stages of remodeling for a couple of years, so I was dying to see all of the changes as well as what they brought out from their extensive archive that I’d yet to be able to see.
Realizing life is much more at my whim these days, I booked a very last minute flight to the REAL happiest place on earth and spent Monday morning the way Mondays should be spent: doing cool shit.
AHHHHHH … The Dadaists reign SUPREME right now in the MoMA. How perfect is that? The abject rejection of what is. What is expected. What someone else wants to put on you. The phony baloney some people will wear around to get ahead.
Dear Marcel Duchamp,
It was a pleasure to enjoy all of your bizarre rearrangements and anarchical statements on the bullshitters life gives us.
This time of year, we all start to think about where we could be better. Do better. I’m tackling a Dadaist schmorgesborg of options right now and it feels SO GOOD to STRETCH and put oddities and options together.
Are you pushing yourself to clean up what isn’t quite right. Things that aren’t quite good enough. Be more because deep down you know you can, and you’ve been LETTING something hold you back and push you down for way too long?
What if every single person got out of bed this morning to go disrupt something?
I am. And yes, it freaks me out a little, but it’s long past due.
